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Heidi Reimer is the author of the new novel The Mother Act. Her work has appeared in a variety of publications, including Chatelaine.
Q: What inspired you to write The Mother Act, and how did you create your characters Sadie and Jude?
A: I became a mother with intention and a lot of careful thought, but also with some ambivalence and a good dose of fear.
In the early years, I frequently felt invalidated by glib assumptions and unnuanced expectations about one of the most complex experiences of my life. I loved my daughters, I wanted them to have a nurturing and secure upbringing, I wanted to support them into becoming fully-realized women…and there were many days when I felt like devoting myself to this had sabotaged my own self-realization.
At the time, I didn’t feel I could speak any of this out loud. So I created a character, Sadie Jones, who’s a lot more brazen than I am: Not only does she say it, but she chooses to leave her toddler to preserve her own self and her own dreams.
This story was always two-sided for me, though, and I also wanted to give full voice to a daughter whose mother prioritizes her own thriving. I was acutely aware of the inherent unsolvable dilemma in Sadie’s choice: When Sadie leaves, what does that do to Jude? I wrote this book to explore that dilemma.
Both Sadie and Jude are actors and the story is set on the opening night of a one-woman show. The theatrical elements of the novel emerged from my own front-row seat to an actor’s life through my husband, an actor I saw in character onstage before I even met him. I found that world fascinating from the beginning and had witnessed enough backstage drama to know it would be a rich setting!
Q: The writer Emily Neuberger said of the book, “Does a child's life matter more than her mother’s? Throughout The Mother Act, Reimer asks that question, turning over the facets of two women's hurts, choices, and respective artistic journeys.” What do you think of that description?
A: I love the question Emily poses in this description. Even though my aim was to complicate the conversation around motherhood and give equal weight to two very oppositional perspectives, I’d never framed the central problem in this way.
I love that she both got what I was trying to do and brought her own interpretation to it—which I think is the most meaningful way for our work to be received.
Q: How was the novel’s title chosen, and what does it signify for you?
A: Titles don’t come naturally to me (I even outsourced the naming of some of the fictitious films and magazines in the story so I wouldn’t have to do more of it), but the title of the book was a gift that came early and effortlessly. It felt right immediately.
The novel is about actors and about motherhood, and I like that the title gestures toward both while also carrying multiple meanings.
Is it suggesting that being a mother is an act or in some way unnatural…or maybe just not natural for Sadie? Is it saying that society asks us to play a role or uphold a myth if we are females parenting children? Is it referring to the ways Sadie puts her mothering experience on a stage? You choose!
Q: Did you know how the book would end before you started writing it, or did you make many changes along the way?
A: I always knew that I was writing toward an ending in which Sadie and Jude would see each other after a period of estrangement, and that it would happen at the end of the opening night of a play about their complicated relationship.
I wanted the novel to have a sense of propulsion toward that meeting, as Sadie performs their story on the stage, Jude watches from the audience, and the reader gradually understands the deeper nuances of what has happened between them.
What I didn’t know was what exactly would happen when the curtain came down and Jude went backstage to see her mother. I rewrote the final scenes multiple times, working with my editors to get the tone and the characters’ growth right—and to end on a sense of hope and resolution without being cheesy!
Q: What are you working on now?
A: I’m just finishing another dual POV novel about a complicated relationship between two women—this time a kind of enemies-to-friends platonic rom-com (if that’s a thing) about two women who discover they’re both in a relationship with the same man and have to wake from the false lives they didn’t know they were living. It doesn’t have a title yet—see above re: my struggles with titles!
Q: Anything else we should know?
A: I write a Substack newsletter about the creative process and stepping into visibility as an artist, called The Visibility Letters—you can check it out here: https://heidireimer.substack.com/
--Interview with Deborah Kalb